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Way Down Town

Everyone seems to have different feelings about our confrontation with Gwenna today. I don’t know there is just some uneasiness about how things are going to turn out, that’s just how I feel.

I look back to the other friendships I’ve seen and I honestly don’t know what’s worse, slowly being pushed away, or being rejected with no one to fall back on. Like ripping off a band aid, most people would rather you rip it off quick so you don’t have to go through all that pain. But it still hurts like a motherfucker.

All I can think about is how it’s not even close to being over. The ball is in Gwennas court and that makes me feel uneasy. I need to know what’s going to happen next in these types of situations.


Tomorrow I am going to hang out with Aliya. It’s takes more effort to hang around with her these days and that is one set back from not being together as much. It’s very hard sometimes, but I’ll find out a way to have fun. It’s just when she doesn’t want to stay inside, and we are both out of cash… even if you live in Toronto, it’s hard to find things to do.

Of course after that Owen, Sarah and I are heading down to the Jane Mallet Theatre to watch some kick ass improv from our one and only. If they go onto the nationals (which is highly likely) Lauren will be away for a week. It’s weird, none of us have been away from school for a week before. It’ll be weird not having Lauren around. Plus, going to Ottawa to see her? The chances of that are slim to none. Although it would be really cool.

I’m going to bed, everything is too quiet, too… something. I just watched this really messed up but extremely interesting movie called Way Down Town. Very very strange, and now I feel strange. My head is messed up. I need a good nights sleep and possibly a cold shower to shake this feeling off.

"Maria, what is it you can't face"

10:55 pm - Friday, Apr. 07, 2006

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